so the hsc starts tomorrow. you would think that i'd be stressed and studying heaps but to be honest ive studied about 5 hours in total during the holidays, and 2 hours of it was in maths tutoring. i'm pretty keen to do new step next year, i like the format so much better than year 12. i think a reason why i'm not worried about the hsc is because i still can't believe that it's the only thing keeping me connected to school. like once the exams are over thats it, no more going to belmont high.
i can't wait for next monday, because all but one exam will be finished. hopefully we (as in the amazing crew lol) are going to burn all our school stuff in a bon fire next week, well everything that we don't need anymore. i'm so excited to say goodbye to english especially. it is such a useless subject, like why do we need to learn about shakespeare? frankenstein? blade runner? etc. there is really no point in learning it because i don't know how it's going to help in the future, unless of course you want to be an english teacher, which would mean you want to enter a pointless career.
so overall i have pretty mixed emotions about finishing school. i'm going to miss everyone so much and even some of the classes, but i most definitely will not miss the work and assessment tasks.
and that is my rant for the day :)

CALENDER

7days - engilsh paper one exam
8 days - religion exam
9 days- english paper two exam
12 days- maths and ancient history exams
28days- society and culture exam
35days - year 12 formal
39days - baliiiii
64days - eighteenth
72days- christmas
73days - boxing day races
78days- new years eve
78+days - queensland

soooo excited :)

so we have all learnt change is inevitable.
and change is what is occuring in my life right now.

school is over, aside from the hsc and formal.
i can't even imagine how strange it's going to be not having a daily routine.
worst thing about no school is that im going to miss so many people there, and i know i will lose contact with some, i can pretty much tell who i will and wont see, which sucks.

but overall im pretty much loving life.. my friends have been so amazing, especially the original and new crew :) only thing im hating is that almost everyone is 18 and im still waiting! lol but not long to go now.

Identity is a confronting thing

Those eyes blind me,
That crystal clear blue.
I can feel the doubt within you.
Do you believe in yourself?
You should. I do. They do.
There is not reason not to.
Do you get nervous?
Good. It means you care.
This is the one thing us human beings share.
Do you want people to really listen to you?
Let me tell you this.
I want to listen to what you have to say, not what others want you to say.
Speak from the heart, as this may be the last chance you can.

To fall to pieces does not mean you have failed;
it means there is another path for you to follow in order to succeed

-myself

If This Is It.

And if I had one chance to freeze time
And stand still and soak in everything,I’d choose right now.
And if I had one night with sunshine to break through and show you everything,
I’d choose right now,
Before the fears that I once had start coming back… again.

Oh please come back again… again,
Oh please come back again,
Oh please come back again.
And I’m so scared I might forget,
Just don’t want this to end just yet,
Not just yet.